Babies are OK, but I have a bleed.

Thank you everyone for your well wishes. It's so nice to have support at such a scary time. My US went well yesterday. Babies had good HB's (150ish), were moving around, and were even measuring ahead 1 day. Now the not so good news. She found 2 bleeds, right between the two sacs where it's kind of weak. They should heal up OK, but it does carry a slightly higher risk. I'm on bedrest and off Lovenox, so that should help them go away. The bleeding is already so much less and darker.
Now, if only my stupid doppler would cooperate with me. I've been having a little trouble finding the HB's today, but 1) I haven't been moving around much, so they are probably all over the place and 2) sometimes it's hard to find. Twice I've been at the OB and the doc couldn't find the HB, so they had to pull out the portable US machine. Just with the bleeding, I'd like to find those HB's easier for reassurance!

Happy new year everyone...here's to an amazing 2011!

Bleeding-very, very scared

So tonight when I went to the bathroom, I noticed bright red blood. Horrible. I'm so scared. Please keep my babies in your prayers. I go for an US tomorrow morning. Please God, let there be two heartbeats. Please.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all. May all your miracles come true this holiday season. God bless my family and health.

Early Merry Christmas to me.

So yesterday was another great US. Both babies are starting to get cramped in their little sacks, and they move around so much it is hard to get good pictures anymore. But both are good. Measured at 12W2D, HB 150 & 156. Pretty much perfect. I guess I was right, that US tech at the hospital didn't know what he was doing when he said the HB's were 180. I guess they could have been, but it doesn't matter. Then the not so good news, though. My NK numbers were too high and my TH ratios were way off. So they asked me to stay for a 2 1/2 hour double dose Ivig infusion. I had just gotten my infusions covered through a local hospital, and my son was with us because schools out. So we had left at 9:30 and didn't get home until late. Very late. But it's OK, as the babies are protected now. Hopefully the Ivig is busy soaking up all those nasty NK cells.

You know, to anyone who doubts the immune system having a role in RPL, look at me. That's one reason I started this blog. Sure, it's not the answer for everyone, but for younger women with autoimmune issues who don't have egg/ovulation issues, it is so the answer. And if you look hard enough for answers and leave no stone unturned, you will find answers. Sure, they might be expensive and controversal, but what do you have to lose? I wasn't willing to lose anymore. I've lost enough.

Graduated to the second trimester now :)

So, updates, updates. The cardiologist was really great. She wants me on a no-salt diet to try and control the HBP. Um, considering I'm already gluten and sugar free, um, that's really hard. What the heck am I supposed to eat? But I do like the fact that she wanted to try and avoid meds and try diet first. I like that. And my heart looks good, it's just retaining water due to the prednisone. Ideally I would be off the pred, but considering that is one of the key factors in why I've made it this far, um, no. And she understands. So then I went to my MFM and he put me on a blood pressure med. And he was not happy about me being on pred. Which again, people, I understand, I don't particularly like the nasty drug either, but hello, no meds=3 m/c's, this pregnancy=second trimester. It seems to be working.
And then I had another US on friday and everything was good. I'm a little concerned because the HB's were high (180 BPM), but the guy (yes, guy) was kind of a doof and even needed to check with the radiologist to make sure he got enough info. The good US techs never need to check. And they give me a CD :)
And another little discerning issue is um, discharge related. It is very much more increased. Which yes, I know is normal, but nothing that changes is normal to a RPLer. Loss changes you. You can never be the normal pregnant lady again. You worry, all the time, about everything. And then when you aren't worried, you worry about why you aren't worried. Oh yeah, loss sucks. So my biggest concern is that it's some nasty infection. Which I've looked up and it could be, but due to my Lyme disease, I'm already on the recommended antibiotics for. So I should be covered. So my next theory is that it's increased blood flow, due to the decreased BP, and that I am a normal pregnant lady experiencing normal leukorrhea. Go figure.
US tomorrow-I can't wait!

Yes, we have 2 HB's :)

So the US went well. The thing that is so frustrating about the high blood pressure is that nobody wants to touch it. My Reproductive Immunologist says it's due to the pregnancy and my OB needs to handle the issue. My high risk OB says my RI has me on prednisone, which is causing the high BP, so she needs to handle it. Then my regular OB says we'll just watch it. But the good news is that I got squeezed into an appt with a cardiologist tomorrow morning. He has to handle it right? I've heard they're kinda jerks though. And then I got into another high risk OB tomorrow night-and he's a nice one. So between the two, someone has got to help me.
Kristi-no one has really said why. They just don't want to deal with it. Kwak is concerned about it, but it's not really her thing. She's the one who said to see the cardio. She said she would give me a blood pressure med if she had to, but she'd rather have someone else deal with it. I don't blame her, but it's scaring me because it cannot be a good thing. But it will be OK. Someone's got to do something tomorrow. It's only a day away!

Please let there be two HB's. Please!

So my blood pressure is still way too high and I can't sleep. I can't get a straight answer from a doctor on what to do about it as they are all saying "it's not my problem", see the other doctor. And I'm scared. Very scared. I have an US at 2pm today and I am praying everything is OK. All I ask for is two HB's. Pretty, pretty please again!