Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Things continue to go well.

The US on Monday went fine. It was a quick one just to check and make sure the bleeding had officially stopped and no more bleeds showed up after re-starting lovenox. No bleeds and no bleeding. Still out of the red. Had another OB appointment yesterday which found the HB's quickly. He's sending me to a MFM (Maternal Fetal Medicine) specialist associated with the hospital I want to deliver at. I am currently seeing a MFM with another hospital who I really like and I have seen for awhile now, so I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Which doc I'm going to see. I don't like the OB's with the MFM I see now, so I don't want to switch to that office to deliver me. We'll see how the new MFM is. Sometimes specialists are jerks.
I really want to do something pregnancy related. Buy something. Bedding, clothes, diapers, maternity pants (which I desperately need). But I'm just too scared. I don't want to jinx anything. But seriously, I'm at 15 weeks. I'm not bleeding. Those are huge things. But I'm still scared. I keep thinking once I get to 20 weeks, I'll be OK, but I don't think it will ever stop. I can't help it. I can't lose these miracles. I am so lucky to have them, and I need to see them, touch them, feed them, love them this summer. I want them to meet their amazing big brother and see him smile ear to ear with pride to be a great big brother. It's hard to not be scared when you have an apple and banana growing in you and you want to take care of them until they can be safely born. But I'm going to try...for my miracles.

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  1. Glad to hear the appointment went well! Hopefully the new MFM doctor will be awesome :)

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  2. Im so happy to hear the bleeding has stopped and good luck with the new Dr's...I agree sometimes that the most frustrating part getting the care and also liking the practioner...very tricky.

    As far as feeling comfortable in our situation that just isnt possible...Yes at times we feel better than others but always in the back of your head you have those bad thoughts...that just never go away...and of course like your bleed you will probably have other hiccups along the way but you will make it through and we will be here to support/listen to you:)

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