No news is good news.

I haven't updated in awhile as things are going fine. No new US's (although I have one thursday), so there's not much news. Still hearing the HB on the doppler, so I assume apple and banana are growing away in there.

In less exciting news, I had to buy my first maternity pants. Man, are they comfortable. I understand why women wear them for so long after baby. Elastic waists are my friend.

So, US on thursday...here's to healthy, growing little babies!

Things continue to go well.

The US on Monday went fine. It was a quick one just to check and make sure the bleeding had officially stopped and no more bleeds showed up after re-starting lovenox. No bleeds and no bleeding. Still out of the red. Had another OB appointment yesterday which found the HB's quickly. He's sending me to a MFM (Maternal Fetal Medicine) specialist associated with the hospital I want to deliver at. I am currently seeing a MFM with another hospital who I really like and I have seen for awhile now, so I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Which doc I'm going to see. I don't like the OB's with the MFM I see now, so I don't want to switch to that office to deliver me. We'll see how the new MFM is. Sometimes specialists are jerks.
I really want to do something pregnancy related. Buy something. Bedding, clothes, diapers, maternity pants (which I desperately need). But I'm just too scared. I don't want to jinx anything. But seriously, I'm at 15 weeks. I'm not bleeding. Those are huge things. But I'm still scared. I keep thinking once I get to 20 weeks, I'll be OK, but I don't think it will ever stop. I can't help it. I can't lose these miracles. I am so lucky to have them, and I need to see them, touch them, feed them, love them this summer. I want them to meet their amazing big brother and see him smile ear to ear with pride to be a great big brother. It's hard to not be scared when you have an apple and banana growing in you and you want to take care of them until they can be safely born. But I'm going to try...for my miracles.

US day

US day, US day, keeping my fingers crossed for US day. No more bleeding, HB's heard, things should go OK. Still wearing my lucky necklace, lucky bracelet, praying for 2 HB's and bringing my lucky husband-just in case ;)

Ask and you shall receive.

So I guess all I had to do was say, please can I stop bleeding and POOF! it's gone. Yeah! I am so happy. And having good luck with my doppler again, so it's been easy to find the HB's again. Although how do you know if you're finding the same one twice or not? I am not a small girl, so I can't tell for sure. I have some "padding" to go thru.
I can't believe I'll be 15 weeks tomorrow! How exciting. Never, ever (except for my son) made it this far. I've even gone so far to think about a nursery and themes, which will be owls (my favorite) of course!
Things are looking good and I've got another US Monday just to check. I can't wait. I love seeing my little apple and banana!

Apparently the answer is no.

So my US went great. Both babies measuring perfect, perfect HB's. But the bleed is gone. Which is great, really. But then why the heck am I still bleeding? It's not a lot, but it's still there. And if there's not a bleed in my uterus, where is it coming from? The only far-fetched sort of explanation I can muster is when I started bleeding I had taken some milk thistle (an herb). I had been taking it before pregnancy, and I read somewhere that it is OK to take. Then after I started bleeding I looked it up further and one of the warnings is it causes uterine bleeding. Well, of course. But now, it has to be out of my system by now, so it seems unlikely that that is the culprit. I'm just grasping for straws here and trying to rationalize that everything will be OK. I'm at 14W5D...the odds are in my favor. Please let everything be OK. I've got another US on Monday to check on the babies. Let's hope the bleeding is just a distant memory by then!

Can't I just stop bleeding?

So the bleeding is really throwing me off. I do not like it, one little bit. It was going away monday and tuesday and then last night it came back. It has mostly gone away this morning, but I hate it. It makes me worry. But I guess everything makes me worry. I just got Ivig yesterday, so I should be OK, and I have an US today, but I still need prayers. Prayers that my little apple and banana are OK. Prayers for two HB's. Thanks everyone.

Happy New Year-2011 Here we come!

Happy new year everyone. It's going to be the best year in a very long time. Happy times are coming, things are changing, and getting better. It might prove to be a wild ride, but 2011, I'm ready for ya!